Welcome to my wacky world. I call it that because sometimes I feel like I am off in my own world. As the saying on one of my stamps and
my fridge magnet says "I know i'm in my own little world. It's OK they know me here."

Here you will learn a little about me and my life. Like my marriages, my critters and my hobbies. I love taking photos. so along the way there might be alot of photos.My life is full of ups and downs, more often the downs. I just try to keep on a happy face. Doesnt always work when you suffer from anxiety and depression. But I still always manage to keep my Bubbly little personality.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Hi Everyone! its time to move on to bigger and better things.

So its been almost a month since I've posted.  Last post was about my crazy neighbor and my husbands health.  Well that's an understatement.

I've been threw quite a few changes over the last month.

#1.  My husband decided to walk out on my tell me it was for a break and it turned out to be permanent.

#2.  Lost my job over my panic attacks

#3.  Husband told me July 4th to make alternative arrangements for myself.  That was his wonderful way of telling me he wanted it over.

#4.  I had to move back into my parents.

#5. Husband wasn't talking to me as to what he wanted regaurding us and our marriage so I took control and decided to file on my own for a divorice.

#6. In the process of it all I have learned that my decision is for the best.  I have learned that the whole 1 1/2 years i was married to him was a total lie.  He's gone behind my back on quite a few things that i cant mention here. 

#7. 3 weeks after he walks out and abandoned me i find that he is dating his best friends WIFE.  Yep he stole his best friends girl.  and that is one of the main reasons he left.  I know it doesn't happen overnight like he claims.

#8. I found out most of our marriage he has been cheating on me and lieing to me about lots of things.

I've dealt with it pretty good considering things.  the doc changed my anxiety meds and the panic attacks have stopped for now.  I feel he was the main cause of them to begin with now. 
The funny thing is the first week he was gone it was one day he wanted it over and then the next day its we can work it out.  and i got sick of the back and fourth.  The even stranger part is that 2 days prior to me finding out he was in love with his best friends wife he was trying to make things work with me and telling me that the marriage fell apart because of him.  And that we should do counseling more for me than anything cuz i need it more, and that he's been faithful to me the entire time. 

Now with all that i know I have a very hard time believing the being faithful part cuz you don't just fall in love with someone in 2 days.  when her husband has told me that they made out weeks ago.  and when i looked on the calender it turned out to be right around the time he had walked out on me.  So I am trusting my gut instinct and making decisions to control my life, and he will NO MORE CONTROL ME.

No more covering with my family for the crappy things he's done to me, or the way he treated me.  No more listening to him complain about my family and just being overall treated like i am last on his list of priories. 

Time to move on.


Becky said...

Good for you... I went through a similar situation with my X husband.
I will be praying for you that God will give you perfect peace and another job.
Hugs. :)

Pam~ said...

I'm sorry to read about what you've been through. It sounds like you are heading in the right direction now ... you go girl! Stay strong, Michelle! Sending positive thoughts your way ...

Diane Clark-Sutton (Ldyglfr62) said...

So sorry you have to go through this. It is best to get rid of the bum now before you waste anymore if your life on him. Good luck.

P.S. I can't post to anyone's blog using my Google account. I'm not sure why!

Donna Heber said...


I don't know what to say. I've been meaning to send you an email to see how things were going and then, of course, things got busy and I feel bad that I didn't. It sounds like you are dealing with everything the best you can and have the support of your family. Stay strong - and if you need to vent send me an email :-)

KER said...

put on your big girl boots and kick some butt!! know you're going to come out of this better and stronger...his loss aka stupidity is your gain...and you'll be just fine...i have been through something similar and am so thankful now looking back...big cyber hug and good vibes winging your way

The Mama Monkey said...

Oh Michelle, I feel so sorry for what you are going through, but I am so proud of you for being strong! You go girl and take care of yourself!

Donna Heber said...

Hi Michelle,

Just wanted you to know I was thinking of you and hope you are doing alright.

The Mama Monkey said...

Thinking about you...hope you are doing OK!

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